Life Is Easy Right

No……….. Life is an ongoing process. Our brain is always on process mode. Let’s add a diagnosis to that. We do not realize how much we try to control our life until life hits you, and you realize God will only allow you to think you control things for only a period of time. Just think for once how your life can change instantly. I can remember that day as if it was yesterday, my baby started having a seizure literally in my arm for the first time. I was oblivious to it because I thought that I was honestly exempt from this type of pain. She was only one month old. My brain could not process what I had just witnessed. I was in total denial. There is no way this could happen to me. I was always a good person. I didn’t wrong many people in life so how could this be happening to me. And here we are at the ER, test after test after test….. My sweet Nova, just shaking uncontrollably, and I have no solution for once. How can an overachiever like myself not have a solution for my baby? My first born, second pregnancy. I prayed for this baby so why is this happening. I admit, I asked God why. And guess what, he answered me and told me after a year of dealing with this not so easy life. He told me that he didn’t want me to have a comfortable life; instead, a life of certainty in him where there is potential for growth. I was like really God. You could have chosen something else, not my only child, the one I prayed for. Today, I can honestly say that I am not in control of my life, God is. I wouldn’t be able to think straight if I continued to try to control the narrative. When you stop trying to control things, and actually give them to God your life will change tremendously. Life is not easy, it is a process to greatness! Stay tune for the diagnosis.